never #1

number one. everyone wants to be number one. whether it's on sports teams or in friendships or being chosen first, everyone wants to be number one. if you would ask anyone on the street they'd say the same thing. 

but wanting to be number one and actually being it are two very different things. 

recently I've learned that you can't always be number one. you can't be the very best or the prettiest or the smartest or the friend everyone wants o hang out with. but throughout this realization I also became aware of the fact that the only person whose opinion truly matters is your own. 

you don't have to be number one in comparison to everyone else, you just have to be number one in your own mind. think of yourself as the smartest or the prettiest because if you believe it then so will others. have confidence and let the world see it. love yourself and others will love you. 

I'm not saying this as someone who has mastered the art of accepting ones self. I'm saying this as a teenage girl who still gets upset when one friend chooses someone else over myself, as the teenage girl who no matter what anyone says will still believe I look like a 12 year old boy no matter how hard I try, as the girl who lacks confidence to an extreme to where I probably couldn't even tell you what it looks like. I know I won't get chosen first ever, but despite all of these things I still can find a way to love myself and think highly of myself no matter what. 

we all struggle with the idea of being number one and self image, so don't fight this battle alone. know that in the world thousands of girls are struggling with the same thing and we are all unit together. screw being everyone's number one, and be your own number one. no one is as special as you are, no one is as unique as you are, no one has as much talent as you do. show the world. don't hold yourself back by trying to be number one and instead show the world why you're better than the best. 

everyone else is fighting to be number one, so show all of them why you are. 

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