Intricacy Within Simplicity

I started and erased this post too many times trying to make it sound eloquent, but here it is plain and simple: PEOPLE SUCK. People have ulterior motives and they have their own agendas for your role in their life. But it is most evident in dating. When people decide they like people there is usually some motive. Don't get me wrong, sometimes it's because they genuinely like you and think that you're grand. But a lot of the time its for them. People get into relationships because it is good for them, it happens all the time. They're lonely so they use a person to fill the void, or they want attention, or they think that YOU can do something for THEM.  This drives me crazy. I will honestly admit that I have done my fair share of this too, and I feel so bad for the people who were affected by this, but as I have lived in this wild "adult world" I have finally realized my ways and realized how absolutely terrible it is to treat people like this. People a...

Currently in week 6 of this adventure called college. When I first moved in I felt alive and free and rebellious and like I could do anything, because ya know, college. But now its week 6. I have taken tests, I have studied, I have written papers, and I can officially say that it is not anything like I expected. When I first arrived at Appalachian I believed that homesickness was a myth. How could you miss home when you lived in the prettiest part of North Carolina? Why would I miss Raleigh's traffic, or the burning heat when you went outside in the summer, or the constant road renovations? How could anyone miss the crowded streets of downtown, or the way the stoplight is always red at Capital Blvd.? Why would you want to be at home where your parents controlled what you did and when, where you had a curfew and you were told to "not hangout with those people"? I thought it was physically impossible to miss the structured life I lived in Raleigh. But now I am 6 weeks in...

dear self, soon you will be going on the adventure that is college. while you are there learning new things i hope you learn new things about yourself. I hope you learn to love yourself. I hope you learn to accept yourself. I hope you learn to show kindness and feel joy. I hope you stop doubting yourself. I hope you find love and success. I hope you learn how to better love others and not push others away. BE OPEN BE KIND BE FORGIVING BE GENEROUS BE LOVING BE TRUE TO YOURSELF do not change for others. do not change yourself just to please others. do not try to be something you're not. work hard. do not give up. never quit. put yourself first, but never ever put others off. show God's love constantly. you may be the only Jesus your peers will see, act like it. do not mislead others. you have greatness in you. you may not know it but you will do great things. i believe in you. -kaylee 8/2/16

happiness is a rare thing. many believe that they experience it daily but in reality we bring ourselves to accept events and become content, which we later process as "happiness." contentment is a more frequently encountered emotion.  but happiness? oh, true happiness is an elated feeling. a feeling that makes you believe anything is possible. makes you feel like you're soaring. you feel light hearted and it is as if time stops.              JUST STOPS.  right then and there the elated joy, the happiness, brings time to a sudden halt.  ---- but this happiness... it's fleeting.  its is gone as quickly as it came. you base your standards off of that happiness. BUT HOW DO CAN YOU FIND IT AGAIN? you frantically search for it in drugs, alcohol, relationships, religion, ANYTHING. but happiness is evasive, ellusive; constantly slipping through your grasps.  so you can ask why people would rather lack this feeling all together, and it ...

Love is patient, love is kind, love does not boast, love does not envy.  We hear these things and we all agree and say that it is true, yet we do not apply it to our own lives. Our generation thinks love is sex, sending pictures, having the hottest significant other, texting 24/7.  THAT IS NOT LOVE.  If you only love him person when you're kissing him, you don't love him. If you only want her when she wants someone else, you don't freaking love her. If him yelling at the wall doesn't make you want to hold his fists so he doesn't start to throw punches, you're not in love with him. If the only words you use to describe her eyes are "ocean" or "pool blue" you don't love her. If you think you can accurately describe him at all you don't love him. If his white knuckles on the steering wheel don't make your stomach turn and feel alive all at once, you don't love him. If her voice doesn't replace the silent ringing in y...

Wildflowers have always made me feel jealous. They are outstandingly beautiful and go wherever the wind takes them, and for a while I wasn't sure which of those two things I was the most jealous of. But then one day it hit me, while they are beautiful and free, they are always being plucked out of the ground to be kept, as if people fear it is the last one they will find. It was in this moment of realization that I was no longer jealous of the wildflowers for I had a deeper connection to them.  We are all wildflowers. All beautiful in one way or another, and all free. We could leave wherever we are at any point in time with no warning and never look back and plant new roots and it is all perfectly acceptable. And like the wildflower, every single day someone is trying to pluck you, they are trying to claim you as their own. Don't get me wrong, this isn't a bad thing, it can be the most marvelous moment in someones life, the moment someone chooses you can chang...

  when you look up at the sky and you see the colors blending to make a new one, coming together in ways artists can't recreate, what do you think? cotton candy skies? or how magnificent our God is that He created it? or that the way the light is shining through is breathtaking? do you only think about the sunset and its array of colors?  because whenever i see sunsets i think of you. i think of the way the colors blend  and how they come together perfectly just like your hand in mine. i think of the ripples in the clouds that are identical to the dimples in your cheeks. i think of the shadows on the ground caused by the setting sun and the way the shadows caress your face when your hair falls over your right eye.  but then the sun sets. and the darkness of night falls. and suddenly its dusk and those little things about you that the sunset reminds me of is gone. and instead i remember you telling me you don't love me anymore at 3 am. and you telling me no one would ...